So I started writing

March 23, 2018

It’s been a while since I’ve felt like writing anything for my blog. Not because I am tired of writing, but because I am having a hard time saying what I want to say and feeling like it’s good enough. I get nervous the words I have to say aren’t worth typing out. That people don’t care to read them. That my words don’t matter.


So I stopped writing.



I wrote on an Instagram post a while back that I’m not sure the words I write are even sinking in. Every time I write a story or a post about how we need to stop basing health on weight, I hear fifteen people who are close to me make a comment about how they shouldn’t eat this or they shouldn’t eat that or how they still just wish they will lose weight. And summer is quickly approaching and I know it’s only going to get worse. And I just feel like what is the point of writing out blogs that go against all of those thoughts and feelings if no one even cares or sees what I’m trying to say?


So I stopped writing. 


I read other women’s post about body positivity and I just firmly believe they are making valid arguments, though. I believe in what they are saying. I believe with every fiber of my being that we cannot and should not let our weight and size affect how we dress or what activity we choose to take part on (going to the beach, for example). And there is nothing I want more than for people to treat everyone with respect. When I read women’s posts about body shaming and fat shaming, I just get so hyped. Because, yeah!, why the fuck does anyone think they are better than anyone else because they wear a smaller pant size? How is that even a measurement of betterness? 


So I started to write. 


And this is what I came up with. It’s raw and it’s not edited. And it’s my feelings. And I just want people to know I might get nervous sometimes, and I may lose my urge to fight for what I believe in, but I won’t give in. We need to be better humans. We need to be nicer. And kinder and as I always say, we need to build each other up instead of tearing each other down. 


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